Oh, the start of a new blogging journey. It's always an exhilarating feeling. I'm overwhelmed with all of the possibility, all of the things I could say. It doesn't matter if no one reads my entries, so long as it serves as an outlet for what I'm thinking and feeling.
So, today I am in a state of anticipation and ennui. Anticipation because I filed an application at a nearby Target yesterday morning, and ennui because for the past year or so, being at home means stagnation. I graduated last summer, after spending my last school year at home, reading whatever I fancied and writing essays on topics of my choice. It was a relief after so many years of public high school and all that comes with it. I managed to slip into a world of my own, which was a dream compared to the nightmare of forced education and interaction with people whom I didn't care to be around. But when you run away from something as opposed to confronting it, it has a tendency to follow you and adapt to whatever situation you seem to be in. Now I lack the motivation to steadily educate myself, as well as interaction with people at all. And it's my fault. My question is... how can I heal my afflictions? Well, when one imagines healing, there would be some sort of 'medicine' involved. As well as the common methods of getting well soon--- rest, hydration, laughter, nutritious meals, and exercise. Those are all well and good, but as human beings we are also required to be responsible for ourselves which involves work. And work counters all of the previously mentioned methods of rejuvenation. So then it falls down to balance. That's really the key, isn't it? If you are a well-balanced individual, you can do anything.
Practice makes perfect.
-H
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